Happy 4th!!

Well... its a little blah here this 4th! Rain, rain, go away!!!!!!

Geez! So much for the big walk I had planned. Guess I'll have to resort to the treadmill. The gym closed super early, so I'll have to find a substitute for my WO.

I'm sitting on the couch and got to thinking about the figure fall season. My goals, what I want, and how I need to get there.

So I sent off an email to Julie to see what she thought about I should do with my diet, until the team starts later this month.

So, looks like comp diet back on Monday!

20 weeks out... NPC KY Muscle Figure

Yep... I'm going for it!  I sent Julie an e-mail asking her to save me a spot on the fall team.  I already warned her this is going to be a bumpy prep with lots of crying, whinning, tiredness, and cursing (I can curse like a truck driver... actually I can make a truck driver blush...."hey, don't judge me".  LOL!)  

But I promised myself I would get to the stage this year, after not making it last year.  I have alot of work to do, and muscle to rebuild.  But I can and will do this.

Not sure what my stats are.  And to be honest, I'm glad I have some time to reconstruct before I need to "get pinched".  

Perception

You know, as I drug my sorry arse into the gym today I was feeling a little fluffy.  Ok, fat actually!  And I wore my Team Fitbody tee that says "Right about now, you wish you'd trained harder" for motivation.

I was in the locker room changing my shoes and some lady stopped me and asked if I was a trainer and she loved the shirt.  I said "no", that I just luv to WO and do physique shows.    She said "well, your in great shape".  I wanted to yell, "what!!!"  But I thanked her and went on to my WO.

But ya know... it kinda stuck with me.  And made me think.  What I perceive as a great body, isn't the ideal of most americans.  And as much as I want to change into my dream body, I can't be such a self hater during the process.

I was looking for a pic of the tee I was wearing, but found this one.  April took it last fall a few weeks before my first show.  And at the time, I thought I was still fat.  Gosh I would luv to be back at the size now!  I will BE!!!

Pounding the pavement

Here is the pretty scenery I got to look at during my walk/jog tonight.  I luv to walk here, even though I have to drive 10 minutes to get to this park.  Its makes doing cardio a lot less like work!

Now if I can just get to a Zumba class... now that sounds like FUN cardio.

Cranky/bitachy/pms-in' Vent!

I hate my job!!!!!!!  

Okay, I don't hate what I do exactly, but I hate the long azz hours, stress, and the "on-call" b.s.  I'm mean geez!  Come on!  Seriously!  I DON'T want the over-time!  I want to LIVE!  Enjoy my life & the summer weather.

I haven't been to the gym since I found out, that yes, I broke my hand.  And that's why I was almost in tears everytime I tried to turn a damn door knob.

But what has finally pushed me other the edge is, I'm on call tonight, stuck at work for 12 hours already, grab food at a restaurant cause I'm too tired to cook, and of course I ate like crap.  Come home, relax, and guess what? ..... phone rang to call me back to work.  Fine!  I stomp up stairs to put scrub pants on and.................. the don't fit!!!  ACK!  I find a bigger pair, pull those on & there tight.  Okay, I'll have my little moment later.  Run down strairs cause my phone is ringing to be told, the Cath Team is on standby!?!?  WTF?  Standby?  Lets just say I had a little chat with the damn ER doc.  Standby my Aunt Fanny!!

Since I'm off tomm, I'm going for a hike!  I'm sick of the indoors!!!  

K... Vent over!  

Organic.... Hype or hoax?

Okay... I admit, for the longest time I though the whole organic movement was a BIG old scam -o-roonie to pocket more of peoples dough.

But then I read Jillian's new book... well partially read anyways.  And damn, if what she says doesn't make since to my little science oriented mind.  Now I'm still transitioning into this new lifestyle.  And my grocery bill has gone up, but if I'm healthier & happier, it will be worth it.  

Not to mention I hope it helps my PCOS.  Thankfully, I haven't struggled as much as some with PCOS, but add stress and lack of sleep, and my body is wack!  And maybe *fingers crossed* I'll loss weight!

I have also started taken Magnesium daily to help my periods.  And sadly I had to go back on the "pill".  I was all over the place hormone wise and just couldn't hack it.  

the keurig do-dad thingie

Okay... here is the info to the plastic thing, that lets you reuse your k-cups.

My-Kap (Reuse your K-cup thingie)

I've reused my k-cups several times without a problem.  It actually works better for me this way, as I like my coffee on the weak side.  And I luv all the different flavors!  I'll have to post a pic soon of my coffee collection!  ;0}

Oh... and the website does do a referral thing so if ya don't mind mention that I sent ya (Tracy Richardson).  Thx!  And let me know what ya think of them.